i'm still blur with this whole blogging things and kinda lazy to update..nah really lazy i could say..my last update was months ago..i wrote my last post just due to my over excitement after meeting Kris Allen..who would not feel as excited as i am if its about Kris..
ok i have this fear that haunting me since i was small..its called Hemophobia or Hemaphobia or Hematophobia which also known as fear of blood..i freaked out everytime i see blood..years ago when i was in high school doing biology experiment to check the blood type, i felt very weak when i saw my own blood though i'm not doing it on my own..some of friends even thought that i fainted..
so, i had done a little research..thank you google and i found this..Seeing blood or only thinking about blood can result in the following symptoms : breathlessness, dizziness, excessive sweating, nausea, dry mouth, feeling sick, shaking, heart palpitations, inability to think clearly, a fear of dying, becoming mad or losing control, a sensation of detachment from reality or a full blown anxiety attack. Although a fear of fainting is common in all specific phobias, blood-injection-injury phobia is the only phobia where actual fainting occurs.
luckily, i've never fainted or become mad cz luckily i've never seen such huge amount of blood, yet..but i couldnt disagree with fear of dying..i'm afraid if somebody lose all his blood and then die..blood will remind me of pain..i couldnt stand pain let alone imagining it..last friday i went to a hospital and i overheard a woman talking to the others about her friend that got into an accident and had been admitted to hospital..they talked about wounds and all and i just cant stand it..i felt very weak after hearing their conversation..i couldnt imagine how people could watch grey's anatomy, private practice, mercy, csi or anything like that..i think all of this is cause by my childhood pain..i've once felt in front of my house with my knees, elbows and chin blooding..i cant even imagining it again..
despite of this fear, i also have this fear..Agyrophobia- Fear of streets or crossing the street..i hv thought of posting a picture of blood but i better not..
